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Saturday, August 28, 2010

homesick

this was last year's Eid picture of my family...
guess how it'll looks like diz year..
u wont see d most left standing from back's girl anymore..

how i wish i cud b home..
helping mak making 'kuih raya'
sewing curtain
cleaning

how i miss to give them regretful embracement,
seeking for forgiveness for all my wrongdoings,
crying on their shoulder n right after that
had a trip to visit my relatives

Dear Allah,
bless my family wherever they are..
protect them from unfortunateness,
give me a chance to meet them again..
coz in my heart..
dey hold a special place dat wont b given to anyone else..

angah will alwez fighting for co-driver seat wif me for the trip,
alang will enjoying hari raya songs,
kak chik will eat kuih raya or sleep or playing wif adik,
adik will seat on my lap while playing or fighting wif kak chik..
mak will having chat wif me n angah..
we'll follow ayah's car from d back..
n stop by to get some chestnuts,
we'll sing hari raya songs all d way..

how does it feels diz Eid witout them..

Thursday, August 26, 2010

.::. i'm all urs .::.

dush!!dush!!dush!!

i'm deeply in love
can't say more
ur presence is d best thing ever happened in my life
we started as a bestfriend
we shared everything
problems, sadness, happiness and memories


there were time when we're apart
but again
we met and made up
we caught every moments
we filled every single moment we had
with joy n love
now i know
"YOUR THE BEST THING I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED"
after almost a year we've been separated by thousands miles
time difference that always cause us fight
miscommunication,
misunderstanding,
loneliness,
heart-breaking,

but i promise u,
i'll be back
n we'll catch every single second
with love
love
n LOVE..

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

.::. salam perantau .::.

syawal is just 2 weeks left..
more precisely, 14 days left..
it never feels the same like years ago..
it would never be happened here..
but here is the new thing for this coming syawal..
not once but twice..

dedicated to all who know me,
i'm begging for thousands forgiveness for all my wrongdoings,
how would it be syawal without all of u around me..
without mak, angah, alang, achik & adik masz..
without maklong & paklong, makngah & pakngah, maklang & paklang, makcik & pakcik, mama & pakjang, makdak , paksu & maksu...
mak, maklang & paklang , ayah & umi..

i wanna cry out loud to tell the whole world how terrible it is syawal without all of u..
but,
it's something dat will b paid off in long run..

salam syawal..

Monday, August 23, 2010

coffee & me


the taste of coffee always unbeatable for me..
particularly cuppuccino..
a cup of it early in the morning will makes me remain awake for the whole day..
when i slurp a bit of it into my mouth, i cud feel the air mix with the coffee and disperse evenly throughout my throat..
in diz holy month,
i would say d most missable thing here is coffee..
tonyte,
wif a few minutes uncommitted time i had wif my fren..
we sat near d lake..
watching such a perfect nyte scenery..
no moon accompanied us..
but it was bright enuf for us to see and value the perfect creations around us..


do love coffee..it wont break my heart..
it makes me stay awake n b more realistic in my life..

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Friday, August 20, 2010


1) Ramadhan

bulan y paling best aku rse..bkn sbb ley diet..sbb bulan ni byk bnde aku x wat bulan len n aku wat bulan ni..diet??x seswai lgsg...sbb hari2 mkn nasi..n nasi lauk ayam..ble la nk jd kurus nye...
tp.....apart from that, aku rindu rumah sgt2 ble bulan ramadhan...
bulan ni la dpt mkn makanan y aku suka sgt2..bulan lain boleh je..tp nk cari susah..kalo bulan ramadhan ade bazaar..so, ckp je nk ape..confirm dpt..hahaha...
huhuhu..aku rindu air tebu..rindu popia basah...rindu nasi kerabu..rindu ayam percik..n plg rindu durian....

bulan ramadhan wat aku sedeyh..tp.......

2) new born

hari ni, akak aku baru je bersalin..ok..confirm ramai ckp "bile mase aku ada kakak?"
aku ade kakak sepupu y dh mcm akak aku sendiri..comel sgt baby tuh...n.....
name die AKIF ILMAN...wallaweyh..hero pujaan aku tuh..AKIF ZAMANI...
seb bek x same..tp y pntg AKIF la..comel sgt2...


comel kan???


tp......lahirnye die tanpa nenek..dulu nenek seronok sgt nk raya dgn cicit sulung die..tp, x sempat nenek nk tgk die..mesti sedeyh raya ni..

sape nk masak rendang ayam dgn maman, sape nk suruh semua org bakar lemang..sape nk order kuih bakar...hilang dah ke tradisi tu nanty? dan aku.....disini...seorang diri...mane lg bagus ye...dpt raya kat m'sia tp x mcm slalu @ raya sorg2 kat cni merasa bende baru? **confused**

3) rain n fever

aku mmg dh slalu sakit..dr dulu..or lebeh tepat dr, dr saat aku lahir je..hahaha..melampau..one of d reasons mak x bg aku fly sbb tu la..slalu sgt sakit...tp nk wat cmne..immunisation system x brape nk sempurna..pastu plak, aku ni allergy ubat ck8..mkn panadol bese pun ley bengkak mata..adoiyai..so, ble sakit kat cni, aku akn cube minimised kan pengambilan ubat..

skang ni musim hujan je..dgn jadual klas y berterabur around kampus,maka probability aku kne hujan sgtlah tggi..mggu ni je dh 2 hari x g lecs sbb sakit..ntahla..kalo pakai payung pun kne gak hujan tu..so, aku cam.......biar je la..dh hujan..

bile sakit,
aku nak kan ade org jage aku..mcm dlu2..mak wat bubur ikan bilis..ltak sayur byk2...best sgt..mak paksa mkn ubat..terutamanya ubat batuk...n aku akn keras kepalanye x mkn..
tp kat cni...x de sape nk paksa sume tu..kwn2 nk ckp lbey2 pun x brani..aku ni kan....hati batu...
hahaha

then aku realised...

"jaga diri baek2"

sbb kat cni..x de sape nk jaga aku..n aku x de sape2 nk aku suruh utk jaga aku..
aku bkn bdk kecik ag..
so, jagalah dri sndri..

p/s:: dialog hati & akal

hati:: kenapa ye aku sedeyh sgt hari ni?
akal:: sbb ko terlalu mengikut rasa..cube gunakan aku agar ko boleh mengawal rasa..
hati:: sesungguhnya aku ni cpt tersentuh dan ko slalunye lambat bertindak..
akal:: aku tahu..tp ko perlu tahu y ko sntiasa ada aku utk menimbang sesuatu tindakan..
hati & akal :: kita x kan sempurna kalau satu dari kita 'mati'...

~~sedeyh & gembira hari ni..tp aku taw, aku x sendiri..asza punya hati, akal n jiwa utk terus berdiri !!~~

Thursday, August 5, 2010

ketulusan hati

"JIKA MERINDUI MANUSIA ITU SESUATU YANG TERINDAH,
KENAPA MANUSIA SERINGKALI MENYAKITI HATI KITA...
JIKA MENGASIHI MANUSIA ITU KEKAL SELAMANYA,
KENAPA MANUSIA MELUKAKAN DAN MENINGGALKAN KITA...
HATI..
TETAP DAN TEGUHLAH MENYAYANGI YANG SATU...
BIAR APA TERJADI...
TETAP PULANG PADA PAKSI...
MULAKAN SESUATU DARI SITU SEMULA...
PILIHLAH JALAN YANG LAIN...
YANG PASTI TIDAK MENGHAMPAKAN KITA..."

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