cinta sempurna (part2)

cinta sempurna

Aku manusia lemah
Selalu terjatuh
Berbeda aku dari mu
Kau berdiri teguh

Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan
Dan bila kau tiba
Aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifatmu
Tulusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesabaranmu

Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku tak mampu tuk menanggung
Cinta sempurna
Darimu...
Darimu...

Bukan aku tak pernah
Mengerti dirimu
Ku sanjung setiap kata cinta
Kau berikan aku

Hilangkan rasa itu
Akhirkan semua
Dan bila kau sedar
Aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurna sifatnyamu
Tulusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesabaranmu

Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku tak mampu tuk menanggung
Cinta sempurna
Darimu...
Darimu...

ur day, n diz is mine..

i made a promise to u,

whutever happen,

whoever come across,

i will stay,

hold on,

keep standing,

guess this is what life is,

ones wud never remain at top for so long,

n here it is..

i made a call,

i was about to..

but wasnt yet..

to say dat..

it's ur day,

n u came in first..

u r d next person after her..

i cud say..

ur fren, perhaps she's more significant than me..

flash back 12hrs before..

we had a small argument,

n dat's it..

u asked for something..

still..

i'm hurt..

there u go..

ur wish..

i made it..

i only want u to b happy wif me,

juz for diz 2 days..

it's a pain to know someone came earlier than u,

it's a pain to wait earlier than d time set,

wanted so badly to b d one u heard from,

but as planned,

u shud come n open d door for me..

so dat i can step in,

well again,

its urs..

not mine..

i keep my mouth shut,

but i nid a place to let it go,

wish i cud open my eyes,

n suddenly evrything around me change..

i have u next to me,

i have my dream comes true..

it wont happen..

i noe dat..

so,

i step out..

coz i'm not..

belong there..

allow me..

pain..n i'm hurt..again~~

the imperfection..

when we first met our frens,

we only saw d good side of themselves..

we barely feel offended to them..

after a period of time,

we started to fight,

we started to look for each other's false..

we always feel stranded,

no place to go,

no one to speak,

no one to hear,

it's not that we don't know what's going wrong,

it's not that we can't accept them,

but we need some time to change,

to fit our bad side into their life,

we need encouragement,

we need time,

i need time..

coz i'm not perfect,

i'm not like anyone else,

i'm stubborn,

sometimes heartless,

egoistic,

i hate to admit it,

but it juz at first..

it doesnt means when i opposed,

i didnt take note of it,

u'll find me diz way since u know me,

i'm juz a normal person,

i might forgotten u hated me like diz,

give me time so dat i'll b a better person..

i know i might hurt u..

n who says i'm not,

it hurts me even more knowing that i'm hurting u..

it's me..

n diz is me..

why do we have to fight over something stupid?

keep counting ur lil broken heart

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea,

I'll sail the world to find you

If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see,

I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of

What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3

I'll be there

And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2

And you'll be there

Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

That's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

You can count on me cause I can count on you

If you tossing and you turn and you just can't fall asleep

I'll sing a song

beside you

And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me

Everyday I will

remind you

Ohh

Find out what we're made of

What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3

I'll be there

And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2

And you'll be there

Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry

I'll never let go

Never say goodbye

You can count on me like 1 2 3

I'll be there

And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2

And you'll be there

Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

you can count on me cos' I can count on you

in reality..

even we hear thousands of promises from thousands of ppl..

saying that dey'll stay wif us..

in sadness in happiness..

d truth will never lie on u..

u'll ended up overlooked..

coz evryone has their own life..

to settle d unsettled thing..

to solve d unsolved issues..

to finish d unfinish business..

u r juz less important to them..

do, did & done

exception to me

i wanna make my life n days as perfect as i could

i wanna catch as much as accomplishment as i can

i wanna b all around the world in a time

i wanna b d greatest person i've ever been

thinking back

i'm such a loser

i always denying my fault

rejecting accusation

but one thing i holding on to

is never interfere wif my life if i never step in urs

don't mess wif me

if u have no guts to face my anger

i'm such a stubborn and heartless once u meet my limit

a still tongue keeps a wise head

better to shut my mouth than get my curse

p/s:: i'm nice to nice ppl.

..sy tunggu awk..

Untuk kali keseratus lima puluh juta
Mereka tanyakan engkau soalan yang sama
“Eh kenapa kau masih lagi mahukan dia?”
“Apa kau buta, apa kau pura-pura suka”

Di seratus lima puluh juta kali itu
Di depan semua engkau tarik tangan aku
Yang sedang buat muka kosong tak ambil tahu
Sambil ketawa engkau bilang satu per satu

“Dia mungkin bengis seperti singa”
“Tapi dia nangis tonton cerita Korea”
“Dia mungkin keras bila bersuara”
“Tapi dia jelas, jujur apa adanya”

“Aku lagi kenal dia”

Dah lebih seratus lima puluh juta kali
Aku pesan padamu apa yang bakal jadi
Engkau dan aku ada mungkin tidak serasi
Engkau sangat manis, aku ini pula dawai besi

Di setiap seratus lima puluh jutanya
Aku pun dalam hati semacam tak percaya
Apa kau lihat pada aku jujurkan saja
Terus kau cubit dagu aku, sambil berkata

“sayang mungkin baran tak kira masa
tapi sayang tahan kalau yang salah saya
sayang mungkin saja keras kepala
tapi sayang manja bila kita berdua

saya kenal sayang saya”

Buat apa dicerita
Bahagia kita rasa
Biar tak dipercaya
Peduli orang kata

Baju ronyok tak apa
Asal pakai selesa
Berkilau tak bermakna
Kalau hati tak ada

Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga
Tapi bisa nangis semata demi cinta
Suaraku keras tak berbahasa
Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada

Aku mudah baran tidak semena
Mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta
Dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala
Aku punya manja, kau saja boleh rasa

Rahsia kita berdua..

..patah tangan..

sy ada dua tangan

satu hari,

tgn kiri sy patah..

org ckp..

"tgn kiri..apelah sgt..

mkn bkn gune tgn tu pun..

buat keje pun slalu gune tgn kanan.."

tp...

sy y rse ni..

sy taw la ape rse nye..

walaupun cuma tgn kiri..

(assuming i'm a right handed person)..

tgk org lain boleh gune both hands..

sy rse sedih..

walaupun sy taw..

tgn y patah bukan nye kudung..

satu hari nnty boleh gne balik..

juz need time utk recover..

same juga..

mcm skrg..

org ckp..

"alah...best ape duk sane..

boleh rase ape y org lain x rse.."

kalaulah org rse ape y sy rse..

org msti x nk rse..

ape erti raya tanpa keluarga?

sbb sy bukan hnye ahli keluarga..

sy lebih dr tu..

sape y knl sy,

taw ape fungsi sy..

mak slalu ade sy..

tahun ni,

mak x de sy..

mak ade adik2 je..

admitted..

sy tkut ade org len ambil alih tmpt sy..

sy tkut sy blik nnty,

org x kesah pun sy ade atau x de..

sbb org dh biasa x de sy..

skrg pun sy dh trase..

tp sy...

sy x biase x de sume org tu..

coz evryone holds a special place..

mesti org nk ckp..

"kalo mcm tu, jgn ngade2 nk fly dulu.."

x taw la ape ptt sy ckp..

"slh ke sy nk gtaw ape sy rse..sy x kuat..sume org taw sy x kuat.."

jd y sy perlukan bknlah kata2 mcm tu..

sy perlukan sesuatu utk bg sy jd lbih kuat..

~~kalaupun awk x simpati dgn ape y sy rse,

jgnlah tambah kelukaan sy~~

baik awk senyap, dr awk sakitkan hati sy..

dan....

semua org ade mslh..

jd asza,

x pyhla sibuk2 crite kat org mslh anda..

b independent..

b strong..

stop relying on others..

blog kan ade..

wat pe nk cite kat org..

kalo org x nk taw,

x yah bace..

sy x mintak pun awk bace..

sy cuma nk gtaw ape sy rse kat cni..

ok..

sekian, terima kasih...

asza kan kuat

=)

(fingers crossed)

homesick

this was last year's Eid picture of my family...

guess how it'll looks like diz year..

u wont see d most left standing from back's girl anymore..

how i wish i cud b home..

helping mak making 'kuih raya'

sewing curtain

cleaning

how i miss to give them regretful embracement,

seeking for forgiveness for all my wrongdoings,

crying on their shoulder n right after that

had a trip to visit my relatives

Dear Allah,

bless my family wherever they are..

protect them from unfortunateness,

give me a chance to meet them again..

coz in my heart..

dey hold a special place dat wont b given to anyone else..

angah will alwez fighting for co-driver seat wif me for the trip,

alang will enjoying hari raya songs,

kak chik will eat kuih raya or sleep or playing wif adik,

adik will seat on my lap while playing or fighting wif kak chik..

mak will having chat wif me n angah..

we'll follow ayah's car from d back..

n stop by to get some chestnuts,

we'll sing hari raya songs all d way..

how does it feels diz Eid witout them..

.::. i'm all urs .::.

dush!!dush!!dush!!

i'm deeply in love

can't say more

ur presence is d best thing ever happened in my life

we started as a bestfriend

we shared everything

problems, sadness, happiness and memories

there were time when we're apart

but again

we met and made up

we caught every moments

we filled every single moment we had

with joy n love

now i know

"YOUR THE BEST THING I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED"

after almost a year we've been separated by thousands miles

time difference that always cause us fight

miscommunication,

misunderstanding,

loneliness,

heart-breaking,

but i promise u,

i'll be back

n we'll catch every single second

with love

love

n LOVE..

.::. salam perantau .::.

syawal is just 2 weeks left..

more precisely, 14 days left..

it never feels the same like years ago..

it would never be happened here..

but here is the new thing for this coming syawal..

salam perantau...

not once but twice..

dedicated to all who know me,

i'm begging for thousands forgiveness for all my wrongdoings,

how would it be syawal without all of u around me..

without mak, angah, alang, achik & adik masz..

without maklong & paklong, makngah & pakngah, maklang & paklang, makcik & pakcik, mama & pakjang, makdak , paksu & maksu...

mak, maklang & paklang , ayah & umi..

i wanna cry out loud to tell the whole world how terrible it is syawal without all of u..

but,

it's something dat will b paid off in long run..

salam syawal..

coffee & me

the taste of coffee always unbeatable for me..

particularly cuppuccino..

a cup of it early in the morning will makes me remain awake for the whole day..

when i slurp a bit of it into my mouth, i cud feel the air mix with the coffee and disperse evenly throughout my throat..

in diz holy month,

i would say d most missable thing here is coffee..

tonyte,

wif a few minutes uncommitted time i had wif my fren..

we sat near d lake..

watching such a perfect nyte scenery..

no moon accompanied us..

but it was bright enuf for us to see and value the perfect creations around us..

do love coffee..it wont break my heart..

it makes me stay awake n b more realistic in my life..

single word from me...

1) Ramadhan

bulan y paling best aku rse..bkn sbb ley diet..sbb bulan ni byk bnde aku x wat bulan len n aku wat bulan ni..diet??x seswai lgsg...sbb hari2 mkn nasi..n nasi lauk ayam..ble la nk jd kurus nye...

tp.....apart from that, aku rindu rumah sgt2 ble bulan ramadhan...

bulan ni la dpt mkn makanan y aku suka sgt2..bulan lain boleh je..tp nk cari susah..kalo bulan ramadhan ade bazaar..so, ckp je nk ape..confirm dpt..hahaha...

huhuhu..aku rindu air tebu..rindu popia basah...rindu nasi kerabu..rindu ayam percik..n plg rindu durian....

bulan ramadhan wat aku sedeyh..tp.......

2) new born

hari ni, akak aku baru je bersalin..ok..confirm ramai ckp "bile mase aku ada kakak?"

aku ade kakak sepupu y dh mcm akak aku sendiri..comel sgt baby tuh...n.....

name die AKIF ILMAN...wallaweyh..hero pujaan aku tuh..AKIF ZAMANI...

seb bek x same..tp y pntg AKIF la..comel sgt2...

comel kan???

tp......lahirnye die tanpa nenek..dulu nenek seronok sgt nk raya dgn cicit sulung die..tp, x sempat nenek nk tgk die..mesti sedeyh raya ni..

sape nk masak rendang ayam dgn maman, sape nk suruh semua org bakar lemang..sape nk order kuih bakar...hilang dah ke tradisi tu nanty? dan aku.....disini...seorang diri...mane lg bagus ye...dpt raya kat m'sia tp x mcm slalu @ raya sorg2 kat cni merasa bende baru? **confused**

3) rain n fever

aku mmg dh slalu sakit..dr dulu..or lebeh tepat dr, dr saat aku lahir je..hahaha..melampau..one of d reasons mak x bg aku fly sbb tu la..slalu sgt sakit...tp nk wat cmne..immunisation system x brape nk sempurna..pastu plak, aku ni allergy ubat ck8..mkn panadol bese pun ley bengkak mata..adoiyai..so, ble sakit kat cni, aku akn cube minimised kan pengambilan ubat..

skang ni musim hujan je..dgn jadual klas y berterabur around kampus,maka probability aku kne hujan sgtlah tggi..mggu ni je dh 2 hari x g lecs sbb sakit..ntahla..kalo pakai payung pun kne gak hujan tu..so, aku cam.......biar je la..dh hujan..

bile sakit,

aku nak kan ade org jage aku..mcm dlu2..mak wat bubur ikan bilis..ltak sayur byk2...best sgt..mak paksa mkn ubat..terutamanya ubat batuk...n aku akn keras kepalanye x mkn..

tp kat cni...x de sape nk paksa sume tu..kwn2 nk ckp lbey2 pun x brani..aku ni kan....hati batu...

hahaha

then aku realised...

"jaga diri baek2"

sbb kat cni..x de sape nk jaga aku..n aku x de sape2 nk aku suruh utk jaga aku..

aku bkn bdk kecik ag..

so, jagalah dri sndri..

p/s:: dialog hati & akal

hati:: kenapa ye aku sedeyh sgt hari ni?

akal:: sbb ko terlalu mengikut rasa..cube gunakan aku agar ko boleh mengawal rasa..

hati:: sesungguhnya aku ni cpt tersentuh dan ko slalunye lambat bertindak..

akal:: aku tahu..tp ko perlu tahu y ko sntiasa ada aku utk menimbang sesuatu tindakan..

hati & akal :: kita x kan sempurna kalau satu dari kita 'mati'...

~~sedeyh & gembira hari ni..tp aku taw, aku x sendiri..asza punya hati, akal n jiwa utk terus berdiri !!~~

ketulusan hati

"JIKA MERINDUI MANUSIA ITU SESUATU YANG TERINDAH,

KENAPA MANUSIA SERINGKALI MENYAKITI HATI KITA...

JIKA MENGASIHI MANUSIA ITU KEKAL SELAMANYA,

KENAPA MANUSIA MELUKAKAN DAN MENINGGALKAN KITA...

HATI..

TETAP DAN TEGUHLAH MENYAYANGI YANG SATU...

BIAR APA TERJADI...

TETAP PULANG PADA PAKSI...

MULAKAN SESUATU DARI SITU SEMULA...

PILIHLAH JALAN YANG LAIN...

YANG PASTI TIDAK MENGHAMPAKAN KITA..."

Cintaku tak berdusta

Tak mengenal ingkar

Tak kenal nestapa

Cintaku hanya indah

Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya

Apa yg kurasakan ini

Persembahan untuk dirimu

Kau dengarkan kasihku

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu

Tak mengenal puitis

Hanya tulusnya hati

Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu

Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu

Selalu

Cintaku tak berdusta

Tak mengenal ingkar

Tak kenal nestapa

Tak ada seribu janji

Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya

Apa yg kurasakan ini

Persembahan untuk dirimu

Kau dengarkan kasihku

Apa yang kurasakan ini

Persembahan untuk dirimu

Kau dengarkan kasihku

CHAPTER 1:: THE BEGINNER

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful..

"Man is never tired of praying for good,

and if evil touch him,

then he is despairing, hopeless.

- Manusia tidak jemu memohon kebaikan,

dan jika ditimpa malapetaka,

mereka berputus asa dan hilang harapannya...-

41:49

To those who notice,

this kinda new chapter of this blog..

i woke up early this morning..

had a chat wif my bf..

n suddenly he said..

"check ur blog..on ur previous post titled (my 1st educational post)..

someone has commented..

""ur english sucks..konon student ANU""...

wow... surprisingly.. i didnt notice it..

well...

all this time, d reason why i post my blog was to spill out all i feel..

i never tot dat it'll be read by anyone else..

except those who already requested to b my follower..

honestly,

i have no reason to write for d intention of seeking any attention from anyone..

who d hell i am to seek attention from ppl?

daaaa....

so, i wont bother any comment on my post..

but when someone has commented dat, i would say..

thnx for spending ur time reading at this Bad English Writer's blog..

then i deleted all my past posts..

it juz happen..

i dun have a reason to do dat..

coz i have sumting else up then..

i juz simply deleted its all..

3 hours later..

i recited a translation of Holy Qur'an..

then i found this versus..

i think back for what i've done...

it might not completely reflect it..

but i do have reason to write something about it..

my blog was been read by someone..

but i dunnow who..

suddenly commented in such a demotivating way..(i wud say)

then, i juz simply deleted all my past posts coz i've been distracted with dat comment..

whoever u might be..

i wud say this..

my english is sucks, so...

i have reason to come to ANU n improve it..

i have reason to get scholarship to mingle wif Australian to learn their language and culture..

i have reason to write on my bog wutever i felt so dat someone like u (who really concern on my english) to rectify my wrongs..

why do i have to back down n stop writing..

this is my blog anyway..

my place to express wutever i feel inside my heart..

n if u want to read it..

its my pleasure..

n if u hate it n willing to say somthing...

be happy to do so (but wif some sensitivities taken)..

i dont even know u (since it was anonymously written)..

sometimes,

u might dun realise dat all ur words might kill a heart..

might hurt others so badly..

at first,

i was about to give up on writing..

in english particularly..

but then i realised..

i shudn't give up if i want to improve my english..

yes...my english sucks...

but at least...

i have attempted to ameliorate it..

i'm in progress of make it better..

n i believe...

good things wont come that easily..

i need to learn n be patient throughout the process..

u wont born wif such a good skills...

u have to discover n polish it up so dat ppl wud noe ur expertise..

well said then..

i take ur comment as something that i shud challenge myself to..

TQ...